It is seems big and empty to me today.

A few days ago I held the hand of the person who loved me the most in my lifetime and watched as the last few breathes were taken.

Left on own terms, wanted the pain to end. Know it is selfish to think of myself at such a time, but can't help but feeling a bit lost.

Funeral tommorow. Really not looking forward to that. It is raining on the outside and raining on the inside.